School series: The BIG question

I have already had English Literature, English Language and Psychology once each and I just feel so much more prepared this time around, I know what to do inside and outside of the classroom to succeed best and I am feeling incredibly positive. Things in my life really are falling into place; I am able to have my family members touch my arm or hug me without either having a panic attack or passing out, I can have a real conversation with both of my parents without feeling any resent towards them and I am generally a happier person in all aspects of my life.

Today I was having a severe internal battle with myself over what I am planning to do with my life after I have finished my A levels... A part of me really wants to go to University but another part of me doesn't because I have no real direction in which I want to go in, I know that I want to do something Literature based but I still don't know what. 

There are many things that appeal to me about University like the jobs it will open up for me, the independence of living on my own and the responsibility it will give me, but there are also many aspects that really don't sit well with me. Being on my own and waking up on time, the whole drinking side of Uni, not knowing who will be in your hall of residence and being on my own with only my thoughts.

I understand that there are a lot of reasons people decide not to go to University but I'm still not sure what decisions are the best decisions for me, I would like to be sure when I apply that I am doing it for the right reasons, or that I'm not applying, for the right reasons. I feel like a strong part of me wants to stay for some people in my life and a part of me wants to go, for myself. 

There are so many decisions we have to make so young, it really baffles me as to why we have to make these choices but we all do and it's just a part of life and we have to cope with it. I wish I knew the right answers but I don't, no one does, it's all played by ear I suppose.