Blogmas Day 13 || Apologies Yet Again

Hello lovelies,
So I am clearly not quite cut out for blogmas though not for lack of trying... I aim to continue trying as well, but my life at the minute is just a tad boring and filled with coursework and revision for my mocks! I just thought I would use this blog as a vent of my feelings, its a scheduled post so by the time you read it I will probably have gotten over whatever it was that put me in my blogging rut!
I feel very much like its not just under two weeks until Chritmas, I am incredibly unorganised (which is very unlike me) and I am struggling with staying positive like I know I should. My life is wonderful and I am very grateful for that but it is also hard at times when I am trying to cope with things that have hurt me in the past, no matter how hard you try you can't erase the past you just have to work through it. My boyfriend has been my saviour the past few days, he has taught me that it is okay to not feel fine hundred percent over what happened at all times, and to not worry about changing my hair or make up because it's my life and I can do these things for mppyself.
I feel like as British people we spend a great deal of our time thinking about face saving and pride but we should really just stand back and be grateful to be alive and well. We are all part of a huge miracle and I think we take that for granted at times, life is basically everyday magic and I am so proud to be the only version of me there is in the world.

Rant over then, I hope someone enjoyed this, if not its is good for my personal growth.
Charley xx